ROAD LESS TRAVELED



A TBI survivor is on this road less traveled ... where
lives are twisted and turned upside down ... because of what
happened to me in a moment of time ... where life stood still 
for that awesome moment !  Then suddenly life began again ...
but it is all different ... what once was ... is no longer ...
life suddenly is beginning all over again ... new ... past 
experiences seem vague and distant !  Difficulty in relating to
the past seems to be the norm ... what I once did with ease now 
takes on a whole new perspective ...it becomes a major task ...
so difficult to do and understand !  Clarity of thought is now 
vague and distant ... like looking through a milk-stained glass ...
things are not certain anymore ...hard to define !

My walk is now staggered ... slowed to a pace like that
of being in slow motion ... the world is no longer fast and crazy
like it once was ... or is it ... I can't seem to respond fast enough !

I want to turn the clock back ... back to "that moment" ...
but I can't ... it all becomes a vicious circle !  I want to get off
this ferris-wheel that was forced upon me ... but I can't !  It goes
first in one direction ... stops ... then slowly in the other ...
I've lost track of where I am ... oh God ... even who I am !

Will it ever change ? ... must I continue traveling down 
this road less traveled ? ... or can I take the next exit and get 
off ? ...please let me get off ... please !  I don't know where it
is leading me ...I feel lost and alone ... in this strange world
not of my own creation !  Yet, I have no answers for these questions
that keep revolving in my head ... my mind !

I want closure so desperately ... I want to wake up from this
dream that was thrust upon me ... but, it was not my choice ... I
want it to change ... yet ... it keeps going ... and going ... and
going ... like the pink rabbit !

My question still lingers ... how long must I travel this 
road ... this Road Less Traveled ?

By : Larry J. Huisingh
     April 24, 1996